I really need to work on a dummy book and perhaps two more illustrations to add to my portfolio in order to feel really confident about my review in a few weeks, but I can't seem to make myself.
Instead, I'm daydreaming about personal art projects and all of the experiments I want to try. Meanwhile the voice in my head is saying, "You don't have time for this!" So I do nothing. I don't work on the art I need to be working on, I don't work on the art I want to be working on.
This is a tiny clip of a painting I made for my best friend's birthday. It has a little of the experimental techniques I'm referring to.I'm at a point where I'm thinking, "You've done enough...why not leave it? This portfolio review doesn't have to be perfect...take from it what you can!" I rationalize that I'm not trying to pitch a story to an editor, so why make a dummy? Without the dummy, there's plenty of time to play! Argh!
Update: crisis averted. I took a deep breath and made a step-by-step plan on how to accomplish my goal. My left brain is feeling so relieved, and my right brain can't wait to get to work!